Do things that scare you...

This is what I read from a friends blog today. So I did just that...I met a friend for dinner that had hurt me very badly. One that I loved and cared about very deeply. The meeting was scary. I wasn't sure how it would go. It was intimidating putting all of my feelings out on the line to be trampled. And trampled they were. I went over the meeting several times through my head today and it did not go anywhere near where I wanted /expected it to go. But I can say one thing for certain. God showed me tonight the type of person that I never want to be.

Rest

Isn't it funny how we all live in super high speed. Always competing with one another to build something bigger and better, to be a better friend, or parent than someone else. To throw the bigger birthday with better homemade qualities. To be the best friend an always outdoing the friend that you are friends with. I'm sorry...but I am at a point of rest. I refuse to compete and this stupid race anymore. I am finished. I have learned that missing an event, to spend quality time playing with my daughter is more important. Even if that quality time involves us rocking in her room while she flips through the pages of a book over and over. I have learned that sitting on the couch with my husband reading 2 separate books and laughing at our dogs is more important than planning the worlds largest first birthday. I have learned that getting a text from a friend just asking how my day was is way more important than spending the whole day together. It's things like these that have made me who I am. I am a mother, friend, daughter, wife, sister, and child of God. I am not perfect, nor do I want to be considered perfect. I mess up...a lot. But I know at the end of everyday, decisions that I make will be the ones that matter 100 years from now, and things I miss, will probably be forgotten about tomorrow. :) here I to rest! Take the time to rest! It's really with it, I promise!