I was reading through old blog posts today and came across one from November 2010 where I listed 10 things I was thankful for...I think it's time for me to do that again. :)
1. My Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. If you do not believe in Him...You are missing out!!
2. With that being said, I am thankful for my Salvation. I am thankful that no matter what mistakes I make, my God is so loving and will always forgive me. It feels so good to be surrounded by His grace and goodness.
3. My Husband...When I was in 7th grade, my youth director told all the girls to make a list of qualities we would want our future husband to have and pray about it. She said that God will give us the desires of our heart. Well...long story made short; God does provide. My husband is the most God fearing, Loving, devoted, hard working man I have ever met and he continues to amaze me everyday. I am so Thankful for him.
4. My daughter. I am so blessed to have such a beautiful, delightful, funny, and loving little girl. She may only be 7 months old...but I have never loved someone as much as I love her. It's hard to remember what life was like before she came into our life.
5. Our Dogs...2 chocolate labs. They are great dogs and seeing how good they are with Kinzleigh makes me love them even more. :)
6. My Mom - Me and my momma are best friends. Now that I am a mother, I respect her on a whole different level. I never realized how hard it was to be a parent. I never imagined you could lose friends because you had children, and my mom has told me of numerous friends that have turned their back on her because she had us kids. Becoming a parent is such a HUGE transition and is so hard at times, but it is also so rewarding. I am so blessed that my mother took time to tell my brother and I that she loved us. She gave me her huge! caring heart and her worrysome blood. She worries about everything...and now so do I. :) She wears her heart on her sleeve, and I am starting to see that I do too. She is an amazing mom and I love her so much! I pray that I am that type of mother to Kinzleigh.
7. My Brother - even though we have fought in the past, now that we are both older we have such respect for each other. We still argue, but it's not fist fights anymore. :) He is growing into quite the young man and I am so excited to watch him grow, marry, and start a family of his own.
8. My friends - I am 28. (will be 29 in 1 month) ahhH!!! My best friend and I have been best friends for 15 years?? That is crazy for me to think about. I love that girl though! I love having friends that you can go weeks or months without talking to, and then you pick right back up when you get together. I have learned a lot about friendship in the past 29 years....man, have I learned a lot. Friends are definitely important for the soul. Most of my friends are so close, they are more like family. I would say that is the best type of friendship. :)
9. My job. - I love my job. I love that I work Mon-Fri 8-5 (give or take). I am blessed with great pay and I work with amazing women. There is rarely a day when I go to work and come home without a smile.I also love that I don't work weekends or holidays. Those are such cherished moments and I need those days with my family.
10. My home - I am so thankful that I have a roof over my head, and food in my belly. I know that these are things that I do not deserve, so I give all the glory to Jesus. Without Him in my life, I know it would be a struggle to get by and survive. But with Him, everything is so easy! Paying our mortgage, buying groceries, making sure KG is taken care of...those things come so easy with God on our side. :)
And that's my list. I could go on and on and on. I am so thankful for everything I have been blessed with in life. I wouldn't trade my life for any other!
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Fall Weather
The past couple of months have been very tough. I have been dissapointed on numerous occasions, however, I have a very loving and understanding Husband and family that have been there through it all. I am always reminded that no matter what I am going through, there are other people in this world that are going through a lot more. So, I continue to smile and pray daily that God continues to remind me of this.
Kinzleigh is growing so much. She is becoming so verbal, and really loves people. Anytime someone new is around, she will smile and yell "hey" so loud until they acknowledge her. I feel like since I work all day, I miss so much now. But I am so blessed that she is right down the road and I can see her on my lunch break. It's hard being a mom at times. I always worry if I am doing/saying the right things. I worry about the person that she will grow up to be. I pray that she will Love Jesus as much as we do, and learn to lean on Him through everything. I pray that one day, she will find a husband just like her daddy. I pray that she will make friends that will not let her down, and if they do, I pray she learns how to let go. I love that she is being raised in home that worships God, and loves people. and I love that her daddy has such a servant heart. I hope she learns to have a servant heart as well. We may fail and sometimes make mistakes as parents, but it's such a relief to know that God will forgive us. No matter what people may think about us, or say behind our backs, I am very happy with the life that God gave us. I prayed and prayed to have a baby...and God has blessed us beyond measure. Kinzleigh is our miracle. (not many people know...but there was a point where we were told that we may never have children.) So yes...she is truly our miracle.
Monday, October 31, 2011
7 months and growing...
I haven't been doing a good job in keeping up with this blog, but I am determined to start fresh!
For those coming over from Kelly's Korner - My husband and I tried for 13 months to get pregnant, had 1 miscarriage and then conceived the month we were off all fertitly drugs and letting God have control. I know there are many other women that tried for a lot longer to have children, and some that are still trying to conceive with no luck. Trust me when I say that GOD is in control!!!
We do not know if we will have other children (I, personally, enjoy spoiling Kinzleigh - and am proud to say that!) but if God blesses us with more, we will be happy.
Kinzleigh Grace...You are 7 months old!!!
Can you believe it!?!? Where has the time gone??
You have certainly become our little "Priss Pot", our little "K-Bug", our little "Princess"
I love you so much Kinzleigh and could not imagine our life without you in it.
You are currently 15 lbs.
You wear size 2 or 3 diaper.
You are in onesie's size 3-6 month, pants 6-9 months, some shirts that are 6-9 months, and shoes from size 0 to size 3.
You are growing sooo fast!! (Make it stop!!)
You are so funny and even when you are sick, you still make us laugh.
You love standing up, saying "hey", crying for momma - and then laughing when you get your way.
You love laughing, our 2 big horses dogs, sticking out your tongue, being tickled, and pat-a-cake.
I can't believe that I prayed for you for 13 months before God blessed us with YOU- peanut. You are our little miracle! I love you!!
For those coming over from Kelly's Korner - My husband and I tried for 13 months to get pregnant, had 1 miscarriage and then conceived the month we were off all fertitly drugs and letting God have control. I know there are many other women that tried for a lot longer to have children, and some that are still trying to conceive with no luck. Trust me when I say that GOD is in control!!!
"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him your plans!"
We have decided that we are going to let God be in control from here on out. :)We do not know if we will have other children (I, personally, enjoy spoiling Kinzleigh - and am proud to say that!) but if God blesses us with more, we will be happy.
Thursday, April 07, 2011
She's Here....
So our precious angel Kinzleigh Grace Hadden has arrived!
I am going to write out our labor story so I can remember this in years to come. I find that I'm already forgetting some of the little details and I don't want to forget them all....So I have my bottle of water handy, my baby girl laying across my chest sleeping, and I'm ready to go.
It really started on Saturday March 19. My mom and I were spending the day together since Tim was at work, we started the day by going thrift store shopping, went and got pedicures, and then ended the day at the Beulah Sausage Festival. My feet at the end of the day were swollen beyond recognition and to say I was miserable was an understatement. I was very much looking forward to my appointment on the following Tuesday.
When I went to my appointment on Tuesday, the Dr asked how I was feeling and I laughed jokingly saying how I was ready to have this baby. He said he could induce me but would have to wait until 39 weeks, so I would still have 2 weeks to go. I was happy hearing that, even though I would still have some time to wait, anytime earlier than waiting longer would be fine with me. While he was examining me, he noticed that my blood pressure was higher and I had gained 12 pounds in 4 weeks. Which is A LOT for me...the whole pregnancy I had gained 40 up to that point, and I was starting to gain weight to fast. He then noticed how swollen my feet, ankles and legs were and checked my reflexes. Which he said were Very Brisk. The Dr looked at me and said, "looks like you are going to get your wish afterall, you my dear, are pre-eclamptic" He gave me orders to go home, pack a bag, and head straight to the hospital. I would be staying overnight for a 24 hour urinalysis, along with complete bedrest, and strict sodium free diet. I headed into the ultrasound room to make sure Kinzleigh was head down still and to make sure she was ok to come early...which she was. And then made a phone call to Tim and my mom letting them know what was going on. I headed home, packed a bag, and Tim and I headed to the hospital.
Once we arrived at the hospital, check in was very easy. They were already waiting on me to get there so my room was ready. I was checked in, went to my room, and Tim and I settled in for the night. Until the IV nurse came in...let me say...that was the worse pain I have ever been in. The inital nurse that came in attempted to put the IV into my right wrist...right at my bone...I screamed, I cried, and squeezed the snot out of Tim's hand. Well, finally she was finished...or so I thought. Turns out, the vein rolled so she wasn't able to get the IV inserted. She then stood up, said she was going to give us a break, and left the room. So now, not only did I just have this horrible pain in my wrist, I would have to undergo it again. A few minutes later a second nurse came in, (with lidacain to numb the area first) and after trying to insert the IV into my hand (my vein collapsed) she finally got the IV in right below the crease under my elbow. It still hurt...but the lidacain helped tramendously. IV's are no fun!
After all that, we were finally able to get a little rest. We weren't sure what the next plan would be, all we could do was wait until we saw my Dr the next day. That night we talked about all the different possiblities that could happen, would we be sent home, would we be at the hospital until she was born a couple weeks later, or would we be induced and leave the hospital with a new baby a couple days later? It was all up in the air at that point.
The next morning, my Dr came in and talked with us for quite a while about the different options we had. He pretty much told us that we weren't going anywhere until we had this baby. He said that he was pretty positive that I was pre-eclamptic and he wanted to take Kinzleigh as soon as possible to prevent anything serious from happening to either of us. But because she was 3 weeks early, he would have to get permission from the Maternal Fetal Doctor (this Dr determines whether early induction should happen or whether it's better to wait). So a couple hours later, we met Dr Thorpe. He asked us a few questions, stood up, and said..."yep, we are going to induce you. You have 1 hour to get a shower and get ready to start induction"
Oh my...Tim and I were so excited! We just couldn't believe we would meet our little angel in just a few hours. Even though everyone told us induction would be horrible and normally lasts a long time with first pregnancy's, we were very excited to know the time had arrived finally.
I hurried through a quick shower, and we were taken to a room in labor and delivery. Once I was all set up and hooked up to every piece of equipment in the room, I was given the cervidil to start the induction. I was told it would take 4 hours before they could check me and then if I needed another one, they would give me one at that point. So now we were in wait mode. The 4 hours seemed to fly by. I started feeling the contractions, but they only felt like period cramps to me, so it wasn't too bad. At 4:00, the nurse checked me, and I was far enough along to get started on pictocin. So she went and got my Dr. I remember asking the nurse earlier when I could start my epidural and she advised not to start it until my water broke because she didn't want it to run out if my labor lasted long. Well once my doctor came in and checked me, he immediately asked for the tool to break my water. While he was breaking my water, my nurse ran out to get the epidural on its way. She knew I would be begging for it after that. :) I ended up SOAKING the bed when my water broke, I was full of water!, and I got my epi around 20 minutes after that. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. For some reason I wasn't nervous about the epi, like I was when I got my IV. I guess because I knew they would numb the area first. Within minutes of getting the epidural, I was a brand new person. I felt so much better and a lot more comfortable. I remember my mom, Carrie and Vicki coming back in and were surprised at how different I looked. I guess they could tell that the contractions were uncomfortable even though I didn't say much about the pain.
About 1-2 hours after getting Pictocin, getting my water broke, and getting my epidural, my contractions were less than 1 minute apart and were Strong! So strong in fact, that they had to rotate my body numorous times because Kinzleigh was reacting bad to the contractions. Eventually, they just decided to turn the pictocin off for a while. At 7:50, my doctor walked in to check my progress. To our surprise I was Fully dilated and ready to start pushing. I was only 4 cm at 4:00 when my water was broke, so we were very surprised to see that I was already fully dilated.
The room was transformed within a matter of minutes, I started pushing at 8:14 -- the nurse and doctor said I would probably be pushing for a couple hours since Kinzleigh was so high and it was my first pregnancy. At 8:30, my doctor came back in the room....I was doing a great job pushing because he walked in and said "oh my" and then the room became frantic as everyone was throwing on scrubs, gloves, masks...and getting everything opened up. Kinzleigh was born at 8:34 PM...I pushed for 20 minutes. amazing!
I was immediately in love. A love I have never felt before. She was perfect!
I am going to write out our labor story so I can remember this in years to come. I find that I'm already forgetting some of the little details and I don't want to forget them all....So I have my bottle of water handy, my baby girl laying across my chest sleeping, and I'm ready to go.
It really started on Saturday March 19. My mom and I were spending the day together since Tim was at work, we started the day by going thrift store shopping, went and got pedicures, and then ended the day at the Beulah Sausage Festival. My feet at the end of the day were swollen beyond recognition and to say I was miserable was an understatement. I was very much looking forward to my appointment on the following Tuesday.
When I went to my appointment on Tuesday, the Dr asked how I was feeling and I laughed jokingly saying how I was ready to have this baby. He said he could induce me but would have to wait until 39 weeks, so I would still have 2 weeks to go. I was happy hearing that, even though I would still have some time to wait, anytime earlier than waiting longer would be fine with me. While he was examining me, he noticed that my blood pressure was higher and I had gained 12 pounds in 4 weeks. Which is A LOT for me...the whole pregnancy I had gained 40 up to that point, and I was starting to gain weight to fast. He then noticed how swollen my feet, ankles and legs were and checked my reflexes. Which he said were Very Brisk. The Dr looked at me and said, "looks like you are going to get your wish afterall, you my dear, are pre-eclamptic" He gave me orders to go home, pack a bag, and head straight to the hospital. I would be staying overnight for a 24 hour urinalysis, along with complete bedrest, and strict sodium free diet. I headed into the ultrasound room to make sure Kinzleigh was head down still and to make sure she was ok to come early...which she was. And then made a phone call to Tim and my mom letting them know what was going on. I headed home, packed a bag, and Tim and I headed to the hospital.
Once we arrived at the hospital, check in was very easy. They were already waiting on me to get there so my room was ready. I was checked in, went to my room, and Tim and I settled in for the night. Until the IV nurse came in...let me say...that was the worse pain I have ever been in. The inital nurse that came in attempted to put the IV into my right wrist...right at my bone...I screamed, I cried, and squeezed the snot out of Tim's hand. Well, finally she was finished...or so I thought. Turns out, the vein rolled so she wasn't able to get the IV inserted. She then stood up, said she was going to give us a break, and left the room. So now, not only did I just have this horrible pain in my wrist, I would have to undergo it again. A few minutes later a second nurse came in, (with lidacain to numb the area first) and after trying to insert the IV into my hand (my vein collapsed) she finally got the IV in right below the crease under my elbow. It still hurt...but the lidacain helped tramendously. IV's are no fun!
After all that, we were finally able to get a little rest. We weren't sure what the next plan would be, all we could do was wait until we saw my Dr the next day. That night we talked about all the different possiblities that could happen, would we be sent home, would we be at the hospital until she was born a couple weeks later, or would we be induced and leave the hospital with a new baby a couple days later? It was all up in the air at that point.
The next morning, my Dr came in and talked with us for quite a while about the different options we had. He pretty much told us that we weren't going anywhere until we had this baby. He said that he was pretty positive that I was pre-eclamptic and he wanted to take Kinzleigh as soon as possible to prevent anything serious from happening to either of us. But because she was 3 weeks early, he would have to get permission from the Maternal Fetal Doctor (this Dr determines whether early induction should happen or whether it's better to wait). So a couple hours later, we met Dr Thorpe. He asked us a few questions, stood up, and said..."yep, we are going to induce you. You have 1 hour to get a shower and get ready to start induction"
Oh my...Tim and I were so excited! We just couldn't believe we would meet our little angel in just a few hours. Even though everyone told us induction would be horrible and normally lasts a long time with first pregnancy's, we were very excited to know the time had arrived finally.
I hurried through a quick shower, and we were taken to a room in labor and delivery. Once I was all set up and hooked up to every piece of equipment in the room, I was given the cervidil to start the induction. I was told it would take 4 hours before they could check me and then if I needed another one, they would give me one at that point. So now we were in wait mode. The 4 hours seemed to fly by. I started feeling the contractions, but they only felt like period cramps to me, so it wasn't too bad. At 4:00, the nurse checked me, and I was far enough along to get started on pictocin. So she went and got my Dr. I remember asking the nurse earlier when I could start my epidural and she advised not to start it until my water broke because she didn't want it to run out if my labor lasted long. Well once my doctor came in and checked me, he immediately asked for the tool to break my water. While he was breaking my water, my nurse ran out to get the epidural on its way. She knew I would be begging for it after that. :) I ended up SOAKING the bed when my water broke, I was full of water!, and I got my epi around 20 minutes after that. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. For some reason I wasn't nervous about the epi, like I was when I got my IV. I guess because I knew they would numb the area first. Within minutes of getting the epidural, I was a brand new person. I felt so much better and a lot more comfortable. I remember my mom, Carrie and Vicki coming back in and were surprised at how different I looked. I guess they could tell that the contractions were uncomfortable even though I didn't say much about the pain.
About 1-2 hours after getting Pictocin, getting my water broke, and getting my epidural, my contractions were less than 1 minute apart and were Strong! So strong in fact, that they had to rotate my body numorous times because Kinzleigh was reacting bad to the contractions. Eventually, they just decided to turn the pictocin off for a while. At 7:50, my doctor walked in to check my progress. To our surprise I was Fully dilated and ready to start pushing. I was only 4 cm at 4:00 when my water was broke, so we were very surprised to see that I was already fully dilated.
The room was transformed within a matter of minutes, I started pushing at 8:14 -- the nurse and doctor said I would probably be pushing for a couple hours since Kinzleigh was so high and it was my first pregnancy. At 8:30, my doctor came back in the room....I was doing a great job pushing because he walked in and said "oh my" and then the room became frantic as everyone was throwing on scrubs, gloves, masks...and getting everything opened up. Kinzleigh was born at 8:34 PM...I pushed for 20 minutes. amazing!
I was immediately in love. A love I have never felt before. She was perfect!
Saturday, March 05, 2011
35 weeks...
I'm 35 weeks!
(and doing a terrible job updating this blog..)
Pregnancy Highlights:
How Far Along: 35 Weeks
Size of baby: Kinzleigh is around 5.5 lbs (I'm guessing)
Total Weight Gain/Loss: haha...I've gained 40 lbs thus far...crazy I know!
Maternity Clothes: there are VERY few peices that aren't maternity. Everything is swollen at this point
Gender: It's a girl!!! Kinzleigh Grace Hadden
Movement: She is VERY active - especially at night and in the early morning...I'm typing this at 5:00 AM on Saturday because she woke me up tossing and turning. :)
Sleep: What was that again??
What I miss: oh man....I've been craving sushi! Bending over without grunting, sleeping on my stomach, sleeping at all...lol
Cravings: mostly fruity stuff
Symptoms: pressure pressure pressure...I have been VERY swollen and sore too!
I also have terrible insomnia.
Best Moment this week: making it to 35 weeks! 5 more weeks baby girl!!
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